作词 : Vincent Jacovelli 作曲 : Vincent Jacovelli Hey Living like a mess tryna numb my pain Battling the demons in my mind all day Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane Pop a pill Have a drink Don't break down Hey Living like a mess tryna numb my pain Battling the demons in my mind all day Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane Pop a pill Have a drink Don't break down Let's flashback to a moment in time When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind With psychedelics, cocaine and some smoke on the side When I was broken overdosed and was hoping to die (yeah) I guess the damage of feeling ****ing abandoned Left me torn so I was slamming like every drug I was handed I'd manage till I ran out Then ravage through my dads house Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now I couldn't tell that I was losing myself And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt And when the homies hit me up I was refusing the help Cause I was busy tryna make a ****ing noose with a belt But I was lonely and sick of feeling depressed I was running out of options and ways to cope with the stress I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect Cause I'm done with the pain I'd rather hang to my death and say Hey Living like a mess tryna numb my pain Battling the demons in my mind all day Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane Pop a pill Have a drink Don't break down Hey Living like a mess tryna numb my pain Battling the demons in my mind all day Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane Pop a pill Have a drink Don't break down I never thought that my life would end when I'm 17 Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave But all this pain I've been feeling it's time to set it free Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream I waited till it was late and family was sleeping Was thinking bout death I wasn't thinking bout 'em grieving I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills Ran 'em back up to my room feeling hollow with chills Wasn't nervous I was ready I was confident still Poured a dozen in my palm and started popping to kill (yeah) I'm finally doing it Time to call in the eulogist I got what I deserved I took my life and I ruined it 30 minutes later my feelings started to fade Went from falling out of love to falling into my grave I'm getting woozy and passing out in my bed I was fading in and out a few moments away from death But something in my stomach was traveling up my chest I just fell to the floor and started puking up red And now the medicine is covering my hands They were drenched in it this is not the way that it was planned I crawled to my bed I was barely able to stand This is not what I intended I got myself in a jam I ****ed up I was broken and weak I never wanted to die I wanted a moment of peace Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep The next day and saw the suicide note at my feed and thought Hey Living like a mess tryna numb my pain Battling the demons in my mind all day Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane Pop a pill Have a drink Don't break down Hey Living like a mess tryna numb my pain Battling the demons in my mind all day Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane Pop a pill Have a drink Don't break down编辑于2023/04/16更新